6,898. a day at the river with Mel
6,899. cookies serving as communion bread
6,900. I have been baptized for ten years
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Gratitude, hallelujahs, & my favorite images
6,898. a day at the river with Mel
6,899. cookies serving as communion bread
6,900. I have been baptized for ten years
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.
For I am Adonai, your God, the Holy One of Israel — your Savior.
… Since you are precious and honored in my sight, and because I love you, I will give men in exchange for you, and people in exchange for your life. Don’t be afraid, for I am with you; I will bring your children from the East and gather you from the West. I will say to the North, ‘Give them up!’ and to the South, ‘Don’t hold them back.’
Bring my sons from afar and my daughters from the ends of the earth — everyone who is called by my name, whom I created for my glory, whom I formed and made.”
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6,853. my zinnias are so beautiful this year
6,854. gentle, gentle summer rain
“I've been struggling with a couple things lately. By lately, I mean the last couple years. And by struggling, I mean I do battle all day, every day with these thoughts. I am so weary of them, and I am ready to move on.
I'm ready to accept that this may be as complete as my family ever feels, and I'm ready to accept that this body I'm in is good, and I don't need to fight to make it smaller anymore.
I wrote to photographer extraordinaire @shelbymlynnmick and I asked her if she could help me. If she could capture the love and joy in my boys' eyes when they look at me.
It was quite the ask for a photographer. But I'd say she came through. I'm so grateful for these pictures. And I'm so grateful for this season. And this body that has done so much for me. And that you all bought my skinny clothes that don't fit anymore so we could afford to pay Shelby. 😂
The pictures with the sunflowers are for Annie. You'll notice Shelby put in a shadow for her, too, so that I could have a picture to remind me that in our hearts, we are complete.”
Rachel posted that message, minutes after I emailed her family portrait gallery. It filled my cup to overflowing. And reminded me why I do what I do.
I am just now sharing these photos, because 1) I am chronically slow at blogging my sessions, and 2) these portraits and the stories that go with them seem so intensely personal and sacred to this family that I haven’t felt sure that it’s okay to share them. But I’m sharing them now, with Rachel’s blessing, because 2020 has me discouraged, and I need to remember that my job, my art, whatever — the photos I take with families — they’re important. They can bring healing. And we all need healing.
Rachel and I sent a lot of emails back and forth in preparation for this, and we both wanted to find a way to honor their daughter Annie, who was stillborn, in these portraits. We decided on 5 sunflowers, because she would have been 5 years old, and a little shadow-help from Photoshop to show that Annie is part of their family.
I see so much beauty in this family and so much strength in this woman. I am so grateful for the chance to spend some time with them, and I wanted to share these portraits with you.
6,841. a beautiful gift from Caleb and Anna
6,842. a fire to watch and rain to listen to
6,843. being still and quiet
6,844. time with kindred spirits
6,845. a quick jump in the river with my love
6,823 Mary’s courage
6,824 “I guess I want proof I can be seen”
6,825 pretty, beautiful, deep portraits of a woman
6,827 mud on her cheeks, fire in her eyes, water in her hair
6,818 long-awaited portraits
6,819 blackberry sisters
6,820 Machaela’s grace and gentleness
6,821 chasing perfect light
6,822 Caitlyn will see how Machaela was there for her
— Victor Hugo, Les Miserables
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(From the beautiful She Reads Truth print, on their living room wall.)
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“Believe in a love that is being stored up for you like an inheritance,
and have faith that in this love
there is a strength and a blessing so large
that you can travel as far as you wish without having to step outside it.”
Letters to a Young Poet
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